My Tampoi…

Yup, as you can see my heavy burden from last week is lifted off from me… for a day that is! let’s just say i have to survive thru this for another week before i can feel enlighten.

Wat have i been up lately you asked? went thru a test on last sat morning and stayed back in uni for meeting after that. from the uni, straight away go EYM. phew… so u can see that i step home at 12 midnite that day. next morning, woke up and go church again. now for me, all these are not burden. just have to get use to it.

Today or should i say Now, my burden is off for the day since my presentation preparation is done for tomolo. now i’m just here to kill off the time.

Have to specially mention here that one person was somehow disappointed wit i’ve said today. when asked do i treat that person as a good fren, i bluntly said otherwise. the term reflects such great responsibility for me when i myself unsure of achieving or keeping it. i rather let my action do the talking then making verbal comments about it.

Oh ya, finally i was able to get hold of this person whom i for so long din do catch up wit. nothing much of the info i got from the respond. was abit different from last time though. maybe some bad things i’ve done before to that person. regret??? maybe and maybe not.

I’m still in the verge of searching my lost ‘heart’ (mind you it’s not physically!) all this while. or in other words, my ‘heart’ has become a solid hard rock. so, can say i’m trying to defrost it but not sure how long it’ll take.

Well, before going just wanna share this pic taken from nick. it was taken from yesterday’s church service.

Left to right: Daniel, Ezra, me, Kenaidy, Adrian, Hywell, Justin

Praise the Lord! for today i received my result on my test which was held last week. din expect to get a better mark than predicted anyway cos i did have alot of careless mistakes in that paper. i still remember the night before the paper, there was a shutdown of current in my house. thank God that Hywell was at home that wed nite and i was able to go to his house and study (not really study i should say…). i left his house around 12 something back to my home and dozed off abit later after that.

Next morning on the day of the test, i overslept till my fren’s car who came and pick me was in front of my house gate. was so kelam-kabut and prepared myself to go uni without taking my breakfast. during the test in the classroom, i was late so have to sit on the type of chair wit a small writing desk attached to it. can’t complain about it cos the desk was so small it was only enough to have the paper on it and not the calculator!

When the test was over and papers was collected, was able to check wit my fren’s answer and try to make adjustments to it cos my solution was different from his. maybe for some u, cheating in exam is wrong. but for me,it depends. u see if u dun cheat in exam and u fail the exam, ur parents will be upset and u might get bombarded for it. for this paper, i did check my answer wit my fren but there was nothing i could change except for one figure in the working for one of the question. i needed to pass the paper badly since the passing for that paper was very low.

Well, i’m not encouraging anyone to cheat in exam. i see that as a skill cos if u’re smart enough to cheat, u won’t get caught. on the other hand, those who are weak at heart better dun try it. in the end, it all depends on wat are ur odds in passing ur paper.

cheers…

One of my fav movie of all time. watched it like more than 4 times and never get bore of it. and here i just wanna share 1 particular song from the original soundtrack which i like it very much.

Furthermore, i din know the lyric from the song where taken from a Bible! i only get to know it after reading an email from Alex. the title is Turn! Turn! Turn!, sang by The Bryds. most part of the lyric are taken from  Book of Ecclesiastes, 3:1-8. here’s the lyric to the song:

(Words adapted from the Book of Ecclesiastes by Pete Seeger; music by Pete Seeger)

To everything - turn, turn, turn

There is a season - turn, turn, turn

And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to be born, a time to die

A time to plant, a time to reap

A time to kill, a time to heal

A time to laugh, a time to weep

To everything - turn, turn, turn

There is a season - turn, turn, turn

And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to build up, a time to break down

A time to dance, a time to mourn

A time to cast away stones

A time to gather stones together

To everything - turn, turn, turn

There is a season - turn, turn, turn

And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time of war, a time of peace

A time of love, a time of hate

A time you may embrace

A time to refrain from embracing

To everything - turn, turn, turn

There is a season - turn, turn, turn

And a time for every purpose under heaven

A time to gain, a time to lose

A time to rend, a time to sew

A time to love, a time to hate

A time of peace, I swear it’s not too late!

Yes, there’s a time for everything and every activity happened has a time.

cheers…

The very first time i listened to The Corrs was back in ‘97, when i was in form 3 that time. the first song was ‘Only When I Sleep’ from their 2nd album (Talk on Corners) which i happened to watch it on MTV. only after awhile, i realised that their song ‘Runaway’ from their 1st album (Forgiven, Not Forgotten) was the one that somehow put where they are today. worst was that, i kept thinking the 2nd album was their 1st instead!

The unplugged version was released in ‘99. it’s one of the best unplugged album for me since the last by Nirvana back in ‘94. i would give a 10 out of 10 for this album. it contain songs from the first two albums.

Oh ya for those ppl who can’t get enough of them (like me), u can always get a copy of their 2nd compilation album released last yr. The album consists of remixes and songs not found on any of their previous compilation albums. my fav song of all would be ‘runaway’, followed by ‘breathless’. overall, it’s a good album to have despite it doesn’t contain any new song except for a few remixed version.

Currently, they’re on hiatus but Andrea has her own solo project underway. i just hope they dun disband, it would be a waste though.

cheers…

I know i’ve made so many deals wit Him that i’ll quit but i never do it. i certainly not gonna come out wit those excuses which are so lamed. the only thing i can say is that i still dun wanna change.

There are so many things that i can give up but i couldn’t do it for this. good frens gave alot of advice about it and yet i told them, it needs time. wonder how much time i need. months? years? or will it be the day i’m in the grave then it’s the Time?!

You know, it’s not much about how other ppl look at me cos i dun care. but i just wanna do it right for my own good. i think it all comes down to the ‘faith’. it s how much faith i have in Him that He’ll change me and i’m willing to do so as well.

Maybe i’ll have to pull my socks up soon. when? it’s not about when now but it’s about whether i wanna do it or not. Heavenly father, give me the strength to terminate my bad habit and to increase my faith in You. Amen.

cheers…

Time is 1.20am in the morning. i’m suppose to be in the la-la-land at this time around but looking at the fact that i do not have class later in the morning, so might as well drop a few lines here.

Just had my 1st paper this morning. good or bad? well, can say i’m quite careless at times and really unsure how the result will be. and yet, that’s the paper i fear most this time.

Lately i’ve realised one thing which i lack of. and that is caring for other ppl. just recently a fren commented that i do not know how to comfort ppl when they’re feeling down. it’s not that i dun wanna change, but i’m trying.

Have to admit i’m so sarcastic and hard-hearted wit ppl around me. maybe that has something to do wit how my parents brought me up. not blaming them but i guess a person’s characteristic do constitute from how their parents brought them up. ppl tend to say that i’m lucky cos i’m the only child (which i dun think so). my parents never comfort me when i’m down, so how can i comfort ppl.

Lately when doing my quiet time, came across this passage about sharing the pain wit other ppl. Job 16:1-5 tells us that is not how good we’re able to use words to comfort ppl, but the capacity of being sympathetic. i just hope God can change me when time passes by.

cheers…

Deathbed is the last song on Relient K’s latest album, Five Score & Seven Years Ago. it’s a 11mins song and it tells a story about a person who was actually on his deathbed dying of cancer. just wanna share the lyrics of the song here.

                                        I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I’ll be home

The year was nineteen forty one
I was eight years old and
Far far too young
To know that the stories
Of battles and glory
Was a tale a kind mother
Made up for her son
You see
Dad was a traveling preacher
Teaching the words of the Teacher
My mother left mourning
Went off to the war
And died there with honor
Somewhere on a beach there
But he left once to never return
Which taught me that I should unlearn
Whatever I thought a father should be
I abandoned that thought
Like he abandoned me

By forty seven I was fourteen
I’d acquired a taste for liquor and nicotine
I smoked until I threw up
Yet I still lit ‘em up for thirty more years
Like a machine

So right there you have it
That one filthy habit
Is what got me where I am today

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I’d do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I’ll be home

I got married on my twenty first
Eight months before my wife would give birth
It’s easier to be sure you love someone
When her father inquires with the barrel of a gun
The union was far from harmonious
No two people could have been more alone than us
The years would go by and she’d love someone else
And I realized I hadn’t been loved yet myself

And there’s your typical spiel
Yeah if life was a highway
I was drunk at the wheel
I was seeing the loose ends
All fall apart
Yeah I swear I was destined to fail
And fail from the start

I bowled about six times a week

The bottle of Beam kept the memories from me
The marriage had taken a seven-ten split
Along with my pride the ex-wife took the kids

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end
I can hear those sad memories
Still haunting me
So many things
I’d do again

But this is my deathbed
I lie here alone
If I close my eyes tonight
I know I’ll be home

I was so scared of Jesus
But He sought me out
Like the cancer in my lungs
That’s killing me now
And I’ve given up hope
On the days I have left
But I cling to the hope
Of my life in the next
Then Jesus showed up
Said "Before we go"
"I thought that we might reminisce"
"See one night in your life"
"When you turned out the light"
"You asked for and prayed for my forgiveness"

You cried wolf
The tears they soaked your fur
The blood dripped from your fangs
You said, "What have I done?"
You loved that lamb
With every sinful bone
And there you wept alone
Your heart was so contrite

You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes
Sanctify this withered heart of mine
Stay with me until my life is through
And on that day please take me home with you"

I can smell the death on the sheets
Covering me
I can’t believe this is the end
I can hear You whisper to me,
"It’s time to leave
You’ll never be lonely again"

But this was my deathbed
I died there alone
When I closed my eyes tonight
You carried me home

[Jon Foreman of Switchfoot sings, as the voice of Jesus:]

I am the Way
Follow Me
And take My hand
And I am the Truth
Embrace Me and you’ll understand
And I am the Light
And for Me you’ll live again
For I am Love
I am Love
I, I am Love

This song touched and reminded me that watever we do, God will forgive us if we seek Him. and we are never alone if we know Him, for He’s always wit us.

cheers…

Well, this is the post which is dedicated to Max who is leaving for Perth on mon (16th). i’m still thinking whether to publish it right after i’ve completed this or a day after. oh ya and Max if u’re reading this, i’m not writing this as a testi to send to u cos there seems to be a limit but here no. writing it here would be better than saying cos i never remember wat i’ve said all the time.

Max is not only my fren but also my church member, neighbour and also someone for me to learn. he may be younger than me but in terms of religious and spiritual aspects, he has far more than me. this is what i learn from him most of the time.

Of course initially, i found this guy was abit frank in saying things but then i get used to it cos i’m one of them as well! he’s way better than me wit his frankliness (not sure got this word???) cos eventhough he wanna say things which might caused some buzz, he still look for the right moment. unlike me, which i dun and tend to blurt things out right away.

Wat more can i say? a good worship singer wit a great voice which i can’t deny for i can’t challenge (unless in the bathroom can la!). besides that, he’s more discipline compare to his elder bro (hehehe…). there’s no funny business from him when there are things needed to be done.

Well Max, that’s all i can say about u here at the moment. besides, i only know u for a short time like a year or two ago. anyway, just wanna wish bon voyage and all the best in ur studies. i’ll definitely miss ur presence (but not that bad la…) and hope to see u by the end of the year or maybe summer holiday.

P.S.: Max, do try to consider to get a tattoo since u say a small wouldn’t be a bad idea rite?! hehehe….

cheers…

This post is made in response to wat Max has posted in his blog. i dun know about other ppl but i’ll clarify here why i dun go to prayer meeting.

As the only christian in the family, it’s not easy. all the church activities such the music practice, prayer meeting (used to), EYM and sunday service i went most of the time without my parents knowing.

And yet my parents do wonder where was i up to whenever i went out on thur nite, fri nite, sat nite and sun morning. especially nite time, after the meeting sure go makan one. in the end, always came back at ard midnite. this is no one’s fault cause i myself definitely will wanna eat after that!

Recently like this sem, i can’t go out as i wish to like before. whenever my mum asked where i went the other nite, i would say do work at fren’s place. this lie has been going on for so long. and it’s not about time management thing ok, if that ever cross ur mind.

My mum doesn’t question much but due to my dad. my dad just dislike me going out at nite especially when i’m still studying. that is why i can’t wait to finish my study so that i can attend back these meetings since i’ll be working by that time and i can say i dun have to see the color of their faces. my dad tends to think i’m out in the nite doing some illegal activities. God knows wat i’m doing and i fear no one!

So, i guess that’s my explanation for my absent from the meeting. cheers…

I just wanna intro 2 more christian bands here. 1st would be Day of Fire. Day of Fire is a Christian hard rock band from Jackson, Tennessee. They were signed to Essential Records, where they were labelmates of Third Day, Jars of Clay, and Caedmon’s Call, until early 2007.

Day of Fire had moderate hits with "Cornerstone" and "Detainer" from their self-titled debut album. The album was produced by Scott Humphrey, who has also worked with Metallica and Rob Zombie. It won a Dove Award for Rock Album of the Year and was also nominated for a Grammy Award for Best Rock Gospel Album. Their second album, called Cut & Move, was released on June 6, 2006. "Run", a track from Cut & Move, was the theme song for WWE Unforgiven 2006. Other hit songs from the album include "Love", "Hole In My Hand", and "Frustrating".
Members:

• Joshua Brown - lead vocals
• Gregg Hionis - guitar
• Joe Pangallo - guitar
• Chris Pangallo - bass guitar
• Zach Simms - drums

2nd would be Fireflight. Fireflight is an American Christian rock band. The band originated in Eustis, Florida in 1999. The band is signed by Flicker Records, and has toured with Seventh Day Slumber, Kids in the Way, Shoutfest and is featured on The Scars Remains tour with Disciple, Family Force Five & Decyfer Down in February 2007.

The band is comprised of 5 members, with lead vocals by Dawn
Richardson, Wendy Drennen on bass guitar and vocals, Justin Cox on
guitar and background vocals, Glenn Drennen on guitar, and Phee Shorb
on drums.

Their debut national album The Healing of Harms was released in July 2006 after the band had been together for over half a decade. The band released an EP in 2004 entitled On The Subject of Moving Forward. Prior to this, though, they put out the album "Glam-rok" on an independent label.

Fireflight says that their album "hints of emo-core, modern rock, and progressive metal permeate the record". 

They claim their sound is "Blindside with a dash of Evanescence,"

cheers…